The year is almost over.
Wow. That was fast.
A lot has happened this year…and I think as fabulous as it is to make New Years Resolutions, one cannot do that without reflecting on the past year.
This past year my Mom was diagnosed with breast cancer. For a while that really consumed me…my thoughts, my actions…my life became all about healing and health. I focused all of my energy on my Mom and getting her to have a healthier diet and adopt a healthier lifestyle. My Mom is cancer free now. Pretty awesome. High Five Mama!!!
Then a friend of a good friend was diagnosed with cancer. I just about lost my mind. I created Cancer Squad – www.cancersquad.com to have a place to put all of the cancer-fighting information I had spent months reading and researching. I felt there needed to be a natural cancer-fighting resource out there that people could access and share.
I focused a lot of energy on Raw Is Sexy. I went from blogging once in a while, to blogging daily. I watched my readers double. (except this past week where I fell off the radar a bit for the holiday season) 😉
I paid off and cut up all of my credit cards…and threw them out.
I spent way too much on organic produce…it’s true. I’m just one person and I think at one point I was spending almost 500 a month between raw and organic products. That’s a little bananas…pun intended.
I had a lot of revelations and a lot of enlightening moments of clarity.
I forgave and am working on forgetting.
I’ve discovered that I want to save the world. I want to make sure that everyone is healthy. That no one ever falls ill to disease (dis-ease), depression, sadness, or finds themselves lost in the dark – physically, mentally or otherwise.
I’ve realized that I cannot save the world. I cannot make everyone be healthy. I cannot make anyone’s choices for them. I cannot make myself sick trying to do so.
All I can do is choose for myself. All I can do is be a healthy example…and hope that it helps someone. I can hope it inspires someone to make a healthy change for themselves.
I’ve learned that no matter what I do, someone will always find fault in it. Someone will always feel the need to voice their opinion. I’ve also learned that none of that matters.
I have a ton of blessings, from an amazing family who is always there for me, to amazing friends. My best friends happen to live in other states, (Jodi – Gypsy Girl and Peter – Amend Photo) but that has never stopped them from being there for me. Each of them is a star in my own personal night’s sky…all I have to do is look up, and I know how lucky I am.
It’s been a roller coaster ride of a year. Emotional super-highs and super-lows. Somewhere in between the loops, I found my balance. I discovered what works for me. I found out what a healthy, balance lifestyle, for me – really is. I can’t share that with you, because that’s ever changing, and it’s different for each person. The key was to let it be exactly what it is. To become okay with the now, the present moment. To put down the weight of the world, take off the super hero cape, brush off the self imposed rules and put my toes in the sand. Stop and feel the sunshine on my face. Live in the moment and let the future take care of itself. My friend (Derek – Fluid Motion Pictures), shared that wisdom with me, in a way that finally made sense to my multitasking, future-worrying brain.
I didn’t take any luxe vacations this year. In fact, I used my vacation days from the office to work at a raw food restaurant and see what that was like…. so I am due for a vacation at some point in the future. But the one amazing journey I did take, was one of inward self discovery. Turns out, that journey is never ending. I’m still on that road and I’ve got no plans to cut that trip short. But I’ve got big changes ahead which I’ll tell you all about in 2011 as they happen. 🙂
So before you come up with a short list (or long) of what you would like to change in 2011, or what you would like to do differently, take time to glance back and reflect on 2010.
You wouldn’t be who you are right now without this past year and it’s events.
Forget singing Auld Lang Syne.
In the words of the fabulous Foo Fighters:
I am a new day rising
I’m a brand new sky
To hang the stars upon tonight
It’s times like these you learn to live again
It’s times like these you give and give again
It’s times like these you learn to love again
It’s times like these time and time again
My simple 2011 Resolutions? I’m going to surf more. I’ve only gone surfing once in my life and I loved it, but I didn’t get up on the board. Only half way up. Like half a pop-up. One knee up and one foot. That, I must remedy. (Hey – I have an excuse…It was March in NJ and the water was 42 degrees and the waves were giving me a beating!) 😉
I’m not going to use credit cards for anything.
I’m not going to worry about the future.
Just going to live in the moment, work as hard as I can and do the best that I can with each moment, and let the future take care of itself.
I’m going to run on the beach more and laugh more.
…….and……Hug random strangers. 😉
Looking forward to a fabulous Raw Is Sexy 2011!